Wednesday, August 22, 2012

For Better Millenniums

The Lord has taken me.  He has taken me years ago.
I saw Him walking and I followed. 
Back then I was too young to know.
Know where He was going, Know what I was leaving.
All I knew was that He was there and it was enough.

But today, today I sit, decades later.  The tears hot on my cheeks and I remember.

I remember what it was like to be known.  I remember the embrace of my mother.  I remember the smell of my house, newly built and smelling of paint and wood.  I remember the laugh of my mother in law because her son is the funniest man in our life.  I remember coffee, good coffee.  I remember favorite places.

When I followed Him I left these behind.

My tears once hot on my cheeks now begin to dry with reality.
 I am here.

 And I love it, I do. 
But then why does my heart feel this.  This sadness. 

Lord, I pray, did I hear you right when I followed you?  Why did I leave all these behind? As the words come out I know.  I know.  I know the sadness has overwhelmed me. 

The sadness is still.  So still I can hear Him picking up my heart and He whispers.

He says: You are trading decades for better Millenniums.

Peace floods my heart.

I sit here, He is with me and once again it is enough.

I continue to ponder the picture, the beauty of better millenniums and I let go.  The sadness melts away and I am filled with hope.  In this hope I live the rest of the day.  In this hope I live the rest of my decades, until the decades fade into millenniums. 

Rev 21
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth for the old had passed away.  I heard a loud voice coming from the throne saying. “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and He will live with them.  They will be His people and He Himself will be with them and be their God, He will wipe away every tear from their eyes.”